I woke up extra early today and am enjoying the birds singing and the nice cool breeze. We slept with the windows open! It's almost cold in here which is nice since the boys have been complaining it's too hot and have been encouraging me to turn on the air conditioner. I told Max a couple days ago, "Max! There is no way in hell I am turning it on in April. Buck up." I did however sleep with a fan on that night because it was true that it was too hot in the house for comfort. I discovered that a fan does have perks for sleeping. The noise kind of drowns out all the racing thoughts running through my mind. I kind of enjoyed it and slept better. I did not sleep with it on last night and slept just as nicely. I don't want to be one of those people who can't function wothout a fan. I'm just really not that high maintenance......although I don't like sweating while sleeping either. Fanless sleeping kind of increases the sleeping opportunities! It's nice to just be able to sleep anywhere! This morning is great. I decided when i woke up at 4:45 to just go ahead and get up instead of trying to fall back to sleep and then hit the snooze button on the alarm for a half hour at 6:30. It's an experiment! I hope it goes well and I'm not completely exhausted when I show up to work at 8 am. I think I am passed my days of freaking out over all I have to get done in the next few weeks. The lists have helped immensely. I'm over here crossing shit off and feeling extra good!! I decided this week to give myself a birthday gift this year.... a gift of muscle in my arms. Some of the best gifts are free! I would say most are! I figured out on Monday that I have 25 days until my birthday. So I made a chart which I keep on my dresser. I am going to do a 5 minute arm workout every day and see if by my birthday, I can go sleeveless and be comfortable. Small goals like that are fun! It's a challenge and gives me extra opportinuties to make more check marks on paper. On the chart I also have....squats! Yesterday, I did 70 squats....10 at a time throughout the day in various places. My legs feel awesome! I also touch my toes and try to breathe deep and drink water. Instead of being discouraged that I don't have time to workout in an actual workout setting, I have tried to incorporate some exercise into my day. I've upped my goal on my fitbit! Instead of aiming for 10,000 steps....my goal is to hit the 5 mile mark. Yesterday I walked 6 and a half! It seems like the more tasks I complete on my to-do list, the more goals I hit on my physical activity list.....or maybe it is the other way around. I know I sure feel a lot better and less stressed out and helpless and pathetic. I know I am capable....... I just have to set out each day making my intentions known to myself.....break each day down into smaller pieces and then check them off when complete! It's been a life changer for me the past week or so! I'm feeling very confident that all is well and also forgiving myself for not being perfect and putting things off and you know what I realized? Even if I don't get everything done, who cares!! What needs to be done, will be done. I love taking time out for entertainment and activities that are fun! Like going to the Royals game with Emily and Sam last weekend and laughing most of the day....or the concert I went to last week and stayed out way to late on a Thursday night.....and laughed most of the night.....or the music festival I went to with my mom and we talked most of the trip and then I almost cried listening to Max sing his last state music performance. Taking time for fun is just as important as all the mundane maintenance tasks that need to get done! Those are what I prefer doing the most! If laughing was a task one one of my lists, I could check that off first thing! Anyway, Just wanting to say....
HEY!!!! It's a good day! I hope you enjoy it!
(I think now I am actually going to be late for work! oops!)
Peace and love to you!