So....It's day 6 of the whole 10 day shred. It's been a long week. I didn't think I would make it through at some points but look! Here I am! 4 pounds lighter!! it would be easy to say "Oh that's just a loss of water weight." but I don't think that's true. I've been drinking at least a gallon of water a day. That's a lot of water! The only thing I've really been missing is coffee. I didn't realize how much I enjoy my morning cup! I've been getting great sleep! 7- 8 hours a night and sleeping through. It's been quite pleasant. One morning I woke up at 6.....which is approximately what time I wake up every day....but this particular day, I woke up and felt an eagerness to start the day. Upon realizing that I couldn't run downstairs and start the coffee pot and sip the deliciousness in peace and feel that rush of the caffeine hit my body and the warmth hit my soul, I found myself a little dissappointed. Well, I'm going to change that to a whole lot dissappointed. It felt like I had lost my best friend. I cherish that routine. I think that is my favorite part of the whole day. The only benefit I think I gained was possibly getting better sleep. I don't know. What do you think? Would 2 or 3 cups of coffee at 6 am effect your sleep 16 hours later? I've been walking around with a dull headache all week and missing the skip in my step. Plus, yesterday morning went so terrible that I left the house yelling "F YOU" to my boys and slammed the front door and stomped to my car and walked into work super pissed. The custodian even asked me if I was ok as I stomped through the doors and I said, "I'm too old to have teenaged boys." He smiled....and I calmed down then realized how ridiculous I must have been acting. This morning I just said, "Fuck it" and made a small pot. I drank a cup and plan on drinking one more.....I feel fantastic! I have so much to do today and need to be awake....and happy...and not yelling F YOU and slamming doors. One thing I'll always remember from my year of studying at the Institute of Integrative Nutrition is one of the instructors said that he had seen people who are vegans....with the cleanest diets....walk into the health food store and they were still miserable people. I don't every want to be a prisoner to my diet. I have no regrets of caffenating myself this morning even if it wasn't on my shred plan. This afternoon I might even drink a beer or two.....if I can get all my work done. It's good incentive. I have been following all the other shred rules though. No sugar, no gluten, no dairy, no processed food, no eating after 6 pm. Once you get into the mindset to eat that way, it's pretty simple. Plus once you do it a couple days, you really just aren't very hungry. I think some additive in processed food must bring on cravings even when you aren't hungry. Plus when you are eating for nutritive value, I think your body just feels satisfied. I'm trying hard to follow the advice of my boss...the krav maga queen.... who told me to get active.....well, she suggested it would be good for me. It really is, too! Yesterday, I logged 9 miles on my Fitbit by the time I went to bed. That's a lot of steps and I hope I get just as many today! I love it. This is day 20 of my daily arm exercise routine and I am loving the definition and change I am seeing! I am developing muscles! and wearing a sleeveless top doesn't gross me out any more. I still have a long way to go but I am thrilled with what I am seeing so far. I swear I am my own worst critic! I am doing this for my own personal satisfaction.....it's been a great gift so far! Being a 50 year old woman is kind of hard. The physical changes are so hard to come to terms with....especially when I never really had to work very hard before. I love to watch my mom. She's experienced.....I mean that in the kindest way. She's beautiful and probably one of the most fit ladies in her age group. She works at it. She's very active and healthy. One day she said something like "if you don't use it, you lose it." That reminded me of how important it is to stay active! It's true! I don't want to take my health and body for granted and wake up one day regretting poor decisions. I can see physical changes happening so this is the perfect time to be proactive! I'm really really excited for my 53rd birthday on Thursday! With age, comes wisdom! I have a feeling this is going to be the best year of my life! I truly believe that! It can happen!
Acts of self kindness this week?
I signed up for a Dirty Girl kayak adventure in June!
I made plans to go see Amy in 11 days and kayak on some beautiful Missouri river....I think we are going to camp too!
I agreed to work at the middle school this summer in the month of June. 4 mornings a week. I'm really excited about that. I do love working with the kids and it will save me from getting bored and making poor choices.
I passed up eating at the concession stands at all the games and sporting events I went to which was quite a few.....that felt powerful! Several nights I didn't get home until after 9:00.
I listened to a lot of damn good music! It's a treat!
I forgave myself for not getting everything done that I wanted to get done. I'm not in panic mode yet. Whatever needs to get done will, right? I can hardly believe Max will graduate next weekend....honestly, I'm not looking forward to it. I'm happy for him and the adventures that await him. But I will miss him.
What acts of self kindness have you treated yourself to this week??
Peace and Love to you!!