I've come to the conclusion that June was tearing throught the blankets looking for a cookie! It's possible since I have, for some reason, formed a habit of eating in bed every night at 10 pm. Just when I am about to close my eyes to fall asleep, something comes over me and I throw all caution to the wind and end up running downstairs for cookies....or a piece of chocolate....or a bag of chips. It's basically whatever I can find....except the bananas or little cuties or anything remotely healthy. Luckily, my fun little habit hasn't turned into a love of making giant submarine sandwiches because I would so eat one of those too and then June could really have a good time with the sheets! I bet she likes mustard as much as I do! With all the nutrition information I have acquired, I know what is good and bad for me but I just don't apply that knowledge. I know fruits and vegetables are good, protein is good, exercise is good, you shouldn't eat food that you buy from the place where you buy your gas....I know all that. Over the past year, I have gained ten pounds. 10 glorious pounds of gluttonous heavenly delight. My diet seems to wax and wane according to one pair of jeans. If they fit, I'll eat and if they don't, I'll back off until they do. I don't want to buy a new wardrobe. Luckily the pants are still fitting although the muffin top is looking these days like it may explode. Last night I went to Jazzercise. As I pulled up I saw a group of young girls standing outside the door all dressed and ready to workout. My initial reaction was exactly this, "ah, fuck." I mean I've grown accustomed to being the youngest one there. I enjoy dancing with the older crowd. I don't feel uncoordinated standing next to a woman in her 80's who is taking me to school on the dance floor....I just hink "I want to be like her some day! Go YOU!" I had a slight bit of anxiety about watching those young fit college girls jumping and keeping up with the instructor on their first try when it has taken me several classes just to be able to learn some of the moves. So this is what I did when the class started. I moved to the front where I couldn't see them . Front and center......and I worked my ass off. I kept up. I smiled, I had a really great time doing the 9000 squats and lunges that were required of me....and I paid no attention to the girls behind me. I couldn't see them. For the first time, I left that studio with my hair drenched in sweat and it felt so good. I loved it. Near the end of the session as I was writhing in pain from the abdominal work out, I had a out of body experience. I just had to leave and drift to another demention and I began to contemplate life and fitness. It was then I realized June probably wasn't being a little bitch trying to tear up the blanket, she was probably looking for scraps of food. and it was then I had this thought, "Holy cow, I bet this workout would really show results if I quit laying in bed eating cookies!" I had my "aha" moment. I developed a plan to make one small change.....one small change is easier than a life altering remake of your life that hardly ever works out, you know? I don't have to vow to eliminate any food groups but I can make my bedroom a "food free zone and stop eating in the bed." When I popped back to reality I just thought, "damn! that's a good plan! and doable" Guess what? Last night it worked! I didn't even think of snacking in bed and this morning I didn't wake up feeling like a giant toad....which makes me want to try it again tonight!! As I was dropping Sam off at school this morning, he took some things out of his backpack.....one of them being this....
Talk about temptation looking you straight in the eye! It was a little difficult driving home with that sitting within arm's reach. I just thought how funny that today he would leave it there for me......and then I thought, "I can eat that if I want to.....just not in bed!" and I felt better....but really that option just isn't too appealling and makes me not want to eat it at all......Funny how the mind works, isn't it?
It's a great day, People! Enjoy!!
Peace and Love to you!