Some days I wonder "Can life get any better than it is right now??" My life is just so full. I'm blessed! There have been a few days lately where I feel so blessed it just doesn't seem fair....and I cry. Not sobbing blubbering tears but just a humble tear of thanksgiving. This morning I woke up in joyful celebration. I am heading to Springfield to spend some time with my dear friend, Amy! We may kayak tomorrow or we may not. It depends on the weather. I'm just giddy to bask in her presense for a few days. I really don't care what we do! She is one of my all time favorite people on this earth and our time together is pretty special to me. Do you have friends like that? I sure hope so! It's pretty great! In the past week, I've surrounded myself with a lot of love! I went to Bern to visit with my mother in law. Going to Bern is always like going home. I just love that place. I had such a wonderful visit with Joyce. We sat on her loveseat together and reclined and gabbed for a couple hours like a couple schoolgirls about nothing really. No deep conversations. Just two women enjoyig each others company.....and giggling. She was reminiscing. I love to listen to her stories! I loved that day. I'm sure she did too. I also went to see my new sister Nancy! We met up at Emily's so that those two could meet! That had to have been one of the best nights of all times! We had so much fun....doing nothing really...a lot of porch sitting I guess and yakkin and laughing. I knew those two would love each other and they did! I'm thankful for that and the many gatherings I can see in our futures! Mainly, I've been talking with Dr. Cool....all day and all night....every day. We talk for hours and I love every minute of it. He's so kind and lovable and fun. I'm crazy about him. He's coming to see me! I'm giddy about that. I feel so honored and blessed to have him in my life! You know? This week marks the 5th anniversary of Kevin leaving this earth. I have found myself this year more than ever before remembering all the good parts of him. I have been so thankful lately of all the blessings he left me.....our kids, his mother, his little community of Bern, his brothers and sisters and family. He left me an entire community of people who loved and admired him who now watch over me and I can call them my friends. He always said he would give me the world and he did. He left me in a little slice of heaven that at times I have taken for granted. I have found myself feeling so happy that I spent all those years with him and I was able to love him like I did.....and he loved me right back. When I think of the past 5 years, it's been a series of ups and downs...... an adjustment for sure. I've often thought I could write my first book and call it "101 things NOT to do when your spouse dies" I think I could offer some good insight on that topic. It could possibly be a worthy read and maybe a bestseller!! . When I think of the past 5 years, I also think about how quickly it has passed and how fragile life is and how short it can be and the importance of living a full life and experiencing the greatest gift that life has to offer.....love....not just romantic love but you know.....love for humanity and life itself. I'm so thankful for the wonderful friends in my life, for my sweet heart fluffer, Greg, for my kids, my family, my mom! I'm thankful for Kevin for giving me such a wonderful life while he was here and setting a standard that not just anyone could fill. I'm thankful that he saw something in me when we met that I certainly didn't know was there and he made me a better person and helped form me into who I am today. I'm just thankful for this full life and I am truly thankful that dear Kevin was a part of it and lives on and will so forever.....not only through his kids but through me also. He was a good kind man..... who always saw the best in folks and loved his family with all his heart. And today, I am humbled beyond measure.
peace and love to you.