Well, my raw food diet is a big old failure so far this month. I don't care. I ate a candy bar last night in like 30 seconds and I liked it. I am not beating myself up. Surely, one of these days I will wake up and just eat healthily. I will. I just do not like being told what to do....even if it's by my own self. I hate self denial. I guess I have to fall in love with the foods I want to eat as much if not more than I love a chocolate bar or chips and dip or whatever crap I am putting in my mouth. If I go about it in a more positive manor, it will be easier to transition. In the on-line class I am taking, Ordinary Courage, we are learning about self-compassion and empathy so it's been easy to not be overly hard on myself. I like it. Although I wish somebody would come along and force me to do something amazing. I have the attention span of a gnat. At least I can flit like one too. Flitting is fun. One of the lessons in the class was to make a playlist of empowering music. It's true that the music that we listen to can affect our minds. My playlist kicks ass. It makes me feel good!! I have not been crying so that is good. I feel strong......maybe one day I will actually be strong too. OK. Well, this morning, I am waiting on a guy to come give me an estimate on doing some repairs on this house and then we have a family gathering at cousin Ronnie's to go to. I am taking my friend....Aaron. I like him. I think we shall eat dip.
