"I went to the woods because i wanted to live deliberately. I wanted to live deep and suck the marrow out of life, to put to rout all that was not life; and not, when I came to die, discover I had not lived." -- Henry David Thoreau ♥ ♥ ♥
2010! What a great year, full of play and dreams and just plain old fun. I could possibly say it has been my best year of my life. Shouldn't we be able to say this about every year that we are alive? Wouldn't that be double wonderful? I have been considering 2011 and what will come with it and making plans and dreaming about how great it will be. Are you making plans for the coming year? I'd love to hear them. There is lots of things that I added to my life in 2010 that I am choosing to keep around....like silly string and outings with friends...and lists...and my planner, although at this very minute I have no clue where that planner is! It's ok though because I'm very good at flying by the seat of my pants! Hurray! For the past several weeks, I've been quietly dreaming up my plan for 2011 in my head. Then last week, Emily posted the above quote by Henry David Thoreau as her facebook staus and I thought, "Eureka! This is it!" My plans summed up nicely in quotes!
I want to live deliberately. I want to live deep and suck the marrow out of life, to put to rout all that is not life; and not, when I come to die, discover I had not lived.
I'm not planning on going to the woods to do this. Although the woods are a nice place to spend time...there are just too many ticks there and after contracting Lyme's Disease several years ago, well, I don't like ticks so much. I grew up in an era of instant gratification. I am a horrible impulse shopper. I have acquired enough stuff in this lifetime to suck all my energy forevermore with trying to maintain it. I do not wish to spend my energy that way. That I KNOW! One thing that I have truely enjoyed watching this year is my daughter growing into the authentic person that she is. She is living a life that she loves...full of fun, full of activity, full of adventure. She's happy. She recently took up hunting.
She practices with her bow every day and she's good! She loves to go hunting. As I was thinking about that, I realized that to live a deliberate life, I could hunt too. It's the hunt that is the adventure....not the actual kill, am I right? I'm dreaming of hunting; prolonging the actual "kill" and enjoying the "HUNT". A little self denial is a good thing. For me, too much of a good thing is not a good thing at all. Apply this to shopping...I have a habit of impulse shopping. What if I were to deal only in cash? Decide what I wanted to spend for the week and carry cash and not use my debit card....that would be life changing, right there in itself. Using cash would be like dealing with money with intension, right? It would make it more real. I love to buy books. If I find a book that looks interesting, I go to amazon.com and buy it. After I read it, I have to store it and now, my house is overflowing with books. It drains my energy to see all of them on a daily basis. What if I were in the hunting mode and asked a friend to borrow their copy or actually went to the library and checked out the book so I could return it for others to enjoy? What if I hunted for my clothing? It doesn't take any energy or thought to go to the mall and pick out a cute outfit that everybody else all ready has, does it? There is no adventure in that. What if I made it an adventure and perused thrift shops and the like? Man, I could come up with some totally groovy outfits. I like to stand out in the crowd not blend. You pretty much blend when you are wearing clothing from Old Navy and the Gap. I spent some time with my nieces over the holidays. They are the Queens of Thrift...I love their style! For Christmas, Emily picked up hoodies at various places she spends time and gave them out as gifts. It was very cool. Not only did she provide warmth to her family but it showed she had been places and was doing things. I loved it. I love to watch the show, Sarah Palin's Alaska. ( I AM NOT ENDORSING HER FOR PRESIDENT!) but I do love how she lives an adventure with no fear and she gets out and enjoys her life. She is self confident and self reliant and in that aspect, I admire her. She reminds me of my daughter. I want that. It's not an adventure to sit in front of the TV and watch others live their lives...or a life that someone has scripted for them to act out. We have decided as a family to disconnect our satellite TV for the month of January. I am so excited. For those of you with no cable, what do you do to fill your time? I wonder what we will come up with. I am also going to try to put down my phone. I'm tired of putting my family second for the sake of it. If something were to happen to me, I wouldn't want my boys to say, "she sure spent a lot of time on her phone." It's sad. It might be a little hard to do because I actually love my phone and the connection it brings to other people but honestly, I could use it less....that would be the "putting to rout all that is not life", right? I'm also going to unsubscribe all my newsletters of information in my email. I only read a couple of them but the bombardment on a daily basis is life sucking. I have control over my inbox! Does this rambling make sense? It does to me. What if the Mayans were right? What if the calender ends in 2012? What if this is our final year before the end? Would you do anything different?
Several weeks ago, I jotted this down in my notebook...."I want to live deliberately, wait patiently, do the right thing, deny self, dream big."
If I were to live deliberately, I would actually go visit my friend, Pickle, and spend some time at the Misfit Farm, I would make a way to go to musicfest with cousin Reggie, I would seek out time to spend with my mother and Larry, with my dad and Jo, with Joyce and Dale. I would love my husband more and play with my kids, I would visit Emily more, and have adventures with Ian and Asa....and Season and Lauren. We are a fun creative bunch of people! Heck, I would even go to Bern....but as I said before, I don't like going there because I never want to leave....I feel that way about Tescott, too.
If I were to wait patiently....well, I would give up some of my controlling ways. I would let others participate in tasks and develop skills too. I might even let others actually make the plans. I would pay in cash and not have to have everything right at the second I desired it. I would know that all things work for the good to those who love the Lord.
If I were to do the right thing, well, I would be kinder, give more freely, encourage others, keep my word, eat better, excercise, reach out, give back, participate, share....
If I were to deny self? Well, what are the 7 deadly sins? Wrath, greed, sloth, pride, lust, envy, gluttony...ya, avoid those.
If I were to dream big? I'm all ready doing it....It's what I do best.
Thoughts?? Thank you so much for spending 2010 with me. For those of you who actually followed along, you have witnessed one of the only projects I have ever stayed on task with. I love sharing with you!