It's raining and the forcast is calling for snow. It's the last day of school for the boys before winter break and I really want them to go because I have some things I need to get done but I am terrified of driving in the snow. I hate to do it. This will be a true test for me today. Am I strong enough to overcome this fear? I really don't know! But I hope so. I don't even know when I developed this fear. It's not like anything horrible has happened while driving in the snow.....ever. And I have this new car which is supposed to be able to handle inclement weather with some sensor control driving mechanism....I don't think I am even supposed to be able to slide if I want to....not that I would ever want to slide in my car anywhere.....Holy Cow. I'm getting all worked up and the sun hasn't even come out yet. It's funny what your mind can do when allowed to ponder irrational thoughts, huh? I need to take this time and think of good things...like the fact that we have our tree up and decorated!
It has flashing twinkle lights! and it's too big to put the star on top! It's really beautiful. See? I didn't think we would ever get it put up this year but we did! I worried about that pretty heavily for quite awhile....and it happened. So I am quite positive we will get in the car this morning and I will drive down to the school and drop off the boys and make it back home just fine....then I will worry about picking them up later. It's silly. I should be celebrating the fact that I have all the laundry done! and not too much left on my list of things to do before Christmas! and the fact that it will all get done! I should be happy that if I don't get it all done, I have a girl lined up to come clean for me on Friday! And even if that doesn't work out, the people who are coming this year, love my family and not my house. I should be happy that we are all healthy! Good health is soooo not appreciated...for the most part. And I should be celebrating life itself. It's good!! See? those are a few of the things I am gonna focus on today. I feel better!! Yay! OK. I'm gonna take a shower and get dressed just in case I wreck into the ditch. I don't want to look like shit when standing in the road waiting for someone to pull my car out. This is definately not the day to drive the kids in my pajamas.
Have a good one and BUCKLE UP!!!!