One great thing about my life right now is I have the ability to be spontaneous. It's really quite nice and probably something I take for granted. Every new year, I make a bucket list of all the things I want to do. Spending time with my friend Amy is always at the top of the list. Thankfully, we seem to be able to make that happen at least once. Last week, I texted her and said, "when are we gonna kayak this year?" She said she was starting a new job on Monday but she had time on Friday if that could work. I thought, "well, that's in 2 days" but then I thought,"WTH. I don't have anything else going on." So I said, " I can make it!!" So I packed a bag
and set off on a little ruckus raising adventure. I'm always kind of proud of myself that I'm not scared to hop in the car and go. I'm confident in my driving skills and I really don't mind being by myself plus my itunes kicks ass so It's a win-win situation all the way around. There is nothing more liberating than speeding down the highway with the music cranked knowing that good friends and adventure are awaiting you! I love a good friend who knows everything about you and still loves you. Amy has been one of my favorite people in the whole wide world since I was 14 so....that's 41 years of friendship....what a treasure. You have to take time to enjoy those treasures while they are available because one day...you know...they could be gone. No regrets, People!!! She planned a 8 mile kayak float and her family came too.....since I was going. It's nice to be loved and have people who think you are fun and want to spend time with you. There were 4 of us playing in the sun and the water all day and it was good! Amy and I also had some wonderful talks. Sometimes just gaining a different perspective on life can be so rewarding! It's nice to have someone tell you, "You got this girl! I believe in you!" and it's also nice to be able to tell them that right back because they are kicking ass at life and you know everything they touch will turn to gold despite their fears. We all have fears, don't we?
It's easier to deal with them when you can voice them outloud......things are always scarier in the dark.....so I left feeling empowered. That's what good women do for each other. I'm thankful for all the good women in my life! I'm very fortunate to have several! I'm also thankful I threw caution to the wind and jumped in my car. I was feeling frustrated and antsy and my overthinking was driving me nuts.....kind of like this traffic jam I found myself stuck in....
As I sat there, I thought, you know, that's a lot like the way life is. Sometimes you just feel stuck....whether like actually physically stuck in the spot or trapped in your mind....which is usually the route I take. I sat in that line of cars for quite awhile and I didn't even get frustrated. I just thought,"ok. so we are at a standstill at the moment" and I realized that I only had control of my car. I couldn't make the other cars move faster so I moseyed along in that line of traffic and before long, the jam cleared and the cars picked up speed and we were once again cruising and it was a beautiful thing....kind of like life itself. Today, I am taking steps to move my life along....I am tweeking my resume and filling out a job application and I have hope that in the near future I will be gainfully employed and all the fears I have had will have been for naught. Sometimes, you just have to "be still and know" that there is an opening ahead and blue skies are on the horizon. That's how a little spontaneity worked for me this weekend! I got a whole new perspective going on over here. It's good. I figure if I can jump in my car and drive 200 miles solo, physically challenge my body with an 8 mile kayak trip, and open my mind to a new perspective, I can do anything. It's a really good feeling!!
peace and love to you