So....I did a thing! I’ve been decluttering and trying to get my life in order since the new year. With Sam’s graduation in just a few weeks, I’m preparing for a major life change. It’s not a bad thing.....although it’s something I’ve been dreading for quite awhile. Change is scary. Letting go of meaningless possessions has been liberating for me. If I can let go of things and create something beautiful out of it.....maybe I can let go of this life as I know it, and create something beautiful out of it too. For over a year, I had a crack in my bedroom wall that had been patched. I had thinking about painting but picking a paint color is overwhelming for me. There are too many choices and I’d rather look at a patched wall than choose one. Nobody wants their head to explode.....which mine feels like doing every time I walk past the paint aisle. As I was cleaning the mud room cabinets a couple months ago, I found a paint sample that I had used for a craft project and I thought, “ I can use that color to paint my bedroom!” So I painted a sample on the wall and looked at it for several weeks......
I actually loved it at first and kind of dreamed about creating a new lovely space in my room. I started noticing the feeling that would come over me when I would go to work at Merkaba. So peaceful. I LOVE being there. I never feel like it’s a pain in the ass to go to work.
I was inspired to try to find a paint color that would give me that same feeling at home.....calm, peaceful, rested.....I chose one color. I think it’s beautiful.
I decide to use Merkaba as the inspiration for this project so maybe I could feel the same way at ho,e as I do there......and I do think I have created a beautiful space. I keep my door closed and when I walk into my room every day.....I’m thrilled.
It’s like a little slice of heaven on earth for me! I get up in the morning and light 3 tea light candles and diffuse JOY into this lovely space and then I savor the atmosphere and delight in being alive and at peace until the candles burn out. I plan my day and physically prepare for what adventures may be waiting. And sometimes I just contemplate that everything will be ok and I’m capable of all things. It’s funny how.....for me.....letting go of physical things has been so wonderful for my soul. With the lack of clutter, I have allowed myself to be at peace in my mind. I feel better....more alive....more in control....blessed, actually. I honestly think everything IS going to be ok as I move to the next chapter of my life and that’s a great thing! Who knew redecorating a bedroom could be so empowering. If I had, I would have done it sooner!! But.... timing is everything! You know?? I really LOVE the way my life is unfolding. I do. It makes my heart so happy!
Peace and love to you.